ape aku buat cuti h1n1 ni?

well.. dh banyak kolej cuti disebabkan satu makhluk Allah yg dh terbersin dan membuatkan ramai org sakit.. kt KPTM itself ade 4 positive due to diz pandemic flu.. dpt la kitorg cuti seminggu started last thursday... for 3days aku ngan en suami dok umah.. xcept ari kamis tghari kitorg g klinik sbb en suami tak bape sihat... wahahaha.. mmg tepu dan demokk 2 org laki bini nihh.. tdo mcm nk gle.. pastu bgn lambat.. pastu termenung jap pk nk watpe arini ekk? pastu samb guling2 mcm badak la weii.. pastu ngadap tv.. berebut ngan en suami nk tgk channel ape.. memandangkan last week kt 812 ade x-games.. hatta dgn itttewww... die telah meng'conquer' tv.. dem!! begitulah cerita pada 3 hari pertama kitorg abeskan mase cuti free nihh.. owhh.. mlm jumaat itteeewww.. en suami mengajak saye pn isteri utk menonton wayang (ye che su.. jet degil! hehe.. u no me well kan?) cerita G.I Joe.. urghhh... aku adalah sgt turn on tgk Channing Tatum... yummehhh (en suami... mmmmmmuuuuuaaahhhhh... hehe...) cte sgt best.. g la tgk... huhu...

ari ahad aku dan en suami sgt bosan di rumah... lantas diriku mengajak en suami utk keluar bersiar2.. hehe.. so aku g PC Fair (ye.. satu lagi tempat menyebarkan wabak).. we went jalan2 and aku beli pendrive utk ganti the one dat i've misplaced.. aft pc fair.. aku blk umah mak mertua en suami (hehe.. mak aku la).. tak tertahan perasaan utk poo2.. mmg perangai aku.. asal smp umah mak aku je.. make mulelah aksi2 drama nk kencing laa.. nk berak laaa.. lalu aku berak dgn legenye.. tp aku nmpk cam ade darah menitik.. in my mind.. i wuz thinking dat the blood came out fr my anus.. pardon me.. aku mmg ssh gile doww nk poo2.. so i make dono la abt the blood.. aku pon ke dapo utk huha2 dan membodek ibubape mertua en suami utk membelikan aku sesuatu yg tak perlu dinyatekan disini.. nescaye org kate aku riak dan takabur dan berlagak... huahuahuahau... setelah berjaye membodek.. aku berjaye mendapatkannye.. hehe.. aku pon siap2 nk blk sbb en suami nk tgk futbol match Man U vs ape ntahh..

aku pon cam biase la.. g la toilet utk shishi sblm balik.. ape yg aku nmpk? darah yg almost soaked my pantyliner.. wahhh... terkejut berukk la makkk uolzzz.. aku bitau mak aku.. die soh call dr moc.. aku call la ofkos setelah kne marah.. hehe... dr moc plak mistaken aku ngan sorg lagi patient.. after told him dat i am his patient yg pregnant 6 months.. die mengucap.. die soh aku dtg spital pronto.. sbb we dont know what's goin to happen.. smp2 je aku kt c2.. aku kne g register kt emergency.. tak smp 5mins.. dr moc pon turun.. die soh aku masuk kt emergency room tu utk die check.. die tekan2 perut and die termenung memikir.. 'i rase u kne admit gak mlm ni.. sbb perut u a bit tense'.. tp malangnye aku bilik full.. mcm hotel kan? wahahah.. at first die nk inject aku ngan Dexa.. kot2 aku terberanak awal.. iskk.. cuakk dowww.. tp die kate lek lu.. tgk cemane.. kalau bleeding berterusan.. i kne tahan u lagi lame.. uwaaaaa... don wannnnnn!!!! aku pon dgn muke yg tak rela.. menurut kan je laaa.. dlm kul 1 tu.. dr moc dtg utk scan baby.. heh.. yg si kecik kt dlm ni.. berpusing2.. suke kamu ye? huhu.. he wanted to check kot2 i've internal bleeding.. sbb darah yg kuar berketul2 but amazingly.. baby sgt sihat.. ms scan tu siap mengange2 lagi mulut tu.. tgh makan ke? hehe.. doc asked me to CRIB.. completely rest in bed.. huhu.. kul 4.30 aku tdo ditemani en suami.. nurse came at 3am to monitor my BP.. sgt low 98/64.. the next day at 8.30am doc came to do last check-up.. my BP wuz 104/68.. die kate kalau tade bleeding.. by 1 or 2pm u bley discharge.. he prescribed me with Calcium Lactate and Sangobion..


so here i am kt umah my mom utk berehat.. en suami g keje.. i've until tumoro to rest sepuas2nye.. huhu.. aku agak mati kutu nk watpe.. takkan nk tdo je kan? sembap plak muke aku ni.. i've done the usual house chores.. now i duno wat to do.. huhu..

=(

dh 2 ari mummy's not feeling well.. ujan dan panas.. tetibe haku jd sakit.. pembawakan bdk ke? aku dh la ssh nk kne selsema.. but.. despite the sickness of this so-called ngade2 mummy.. en suami mengajak diriku menonton filem *haih.. sempat lagi kann??* kitorg g tgk Transformers 2.. the movie wuz fuckingly awesome.. besh2.. megan fox dlm cte tu.. my God *wink* i tell u.. sgt sexy.. and not forgetting josh duhammel.. hehe.. rs cam nk g tgk lagi dan lagi dan lagi.. in diz movie sequel.. derang tambah lagi autobots2.. ade twins autobots (huey and dewey), ironhide, jetfire, mcm2 laaaaaa... iskk... best2... pastu elok plak dlm wayang... mak aku call.. wahahaha.. kantoi disitu... ngeh3.. after wayang, i called her.. selamat la kne bebel.. jawapan aku? "ala ma.. bknnye anak along kuar robot pon nnt" *riak tak jawapan?* skali kuar autobot.. haaaa... padan muke... cemane la en suami nk azan and qamatkan baby autobots tu? huhu...

on hiatus again..

LETIH.. TERSANGAT2.. CAN'T PUT IT IN WORDS AT THE MOMENT OF WRITING..

en suami.. jom kte g bercuti... huhuhu... impiana jom?

penyakit psikologi...

aku tak paham satu bende ni... ape mslhnye seme bende nk ngikut org? org mcm ni.. die mcm ni... org mcm tu.. die mcm tu.. aduhhh... come on la... get ur own life.. takyah nk ngikut org.. rimas laaaaaaa wehhh... bile org ckp camni... kau counter pastu kau claim mcm kau je yg ade.. mcm kau je yg rase... mcm kau je yg pernah.. iskk... marah dan menyampahh tawwwwwww...

sakit yg mengade2...

en tunang and i suffered from flu this week.. mule2 die.. pastu diriku... wawawa... makin dekat ari.. sakit ni plak dtg... i woke up at 1 o'clock... iyarggghhhh... behnye tdo kalau sakit2 ni... huhu... so en tunang brought me to the clinic ystrdy.. well.. knowing dr nazli.. he is so gud at dilly dally the b'nez.. en tunang on the other hand hates waiting so much... huhu... mintak mahap ye en tunang? so i went in wit him... pon lame gak.. dr nazli gave us a lot of infos.. and he gave en tunang a new name.. Mr Gynae.. huhu... u looooooooooooooovvvvveeeeeeee dat name kan bdk bulat?

i got my mc for ystrdy... and today.. ms yani and mdm tini plak mc.. mcm gilir2 kan? huhu... musim sakit sbb panas ok? huhu..

gambar sekadar hiasan.. tade kne mengene ngan penulis... LOL!!~~

pening...

ofis aku di'rebrand'.. kitorg pening ngan bau cat... en mail... tulunnnnnnn!!! ade 2 worang pempuan mengandung dlm opis ni... pliz do sum'n abt it... wuwuwu...

how do you feel?

....wen u told a SECRET to some1... he/she spilt it out and made other people to look at us with THE LOOK? can we call him/her back-stabber? or back-knifer *got such word meh?*

it so happens to everybody... our intention is TO HELP.. but they *referring to dat sum1* misunderstood OUR INTENTION TO HELP... takkan kite nk biarkan die terkapai2 ku kelemasan *wahh... nyanyi lagu sudirman plak*... bak kate pepatah... seperti melepaskan hanjenggg tersepit.. kite dh tolong lepaskan die... pastu die geget plak tgn yg membantu inieww... DAYMNE!!!

dh... lepas nih... jgn harap kite nak tolong... lantak engkau lahh... nk terbalik tertonggeng... seme2 ter tu... tak payah konon2 nak mengadu kau sakit... kau nk mampos... kau nk kawen.. atau kau nak beranak... kalau kau dh dok dlm dunie kau tu... sape2 pon takleh kacau... so.. fuck it... kau dok jd cam kera sumbang... lagi bagus... tak menyusahkan org... tak payah nak pandang2 org tak puas ati mcm kau tak buat salah...

marah la nih... mendidih hati iniew... mak sentapzzz....

*sigh*

isnt it true? some times we want our other half to be so 'faultless'... but at the same time... do we cater that for ourselves? i no i havent loved my shayang bulat enough as it is to be compared with the way he loves me.. i havent like fuckin seriously... but deep down inside i love him with every breath i take.. i no that sum say that it is too soon for us to settle down... tp kalau kite nk ikut ckp sume org.. sampai bile2 pon tak abes... bercinte satu dekad skali pon... kalau dh tak serasi... canot go gak kan?

a piece of writing to ponder...

taken from Anasir...

".... wujudkah kesempurnaan dalam ruang lingkup kehidupan manusia?"

my answer? tak.. nada... zero... Rasulullah S.A.W yg maksum tuh pon tak sempurna... sesungguhnye kite tak pernah puas ngan ape yg kite ade... dh bg betis nk peha plak.. Nuar pon ade tulih psl obses in his blog.. i 110% agree with his statement... sumtimes its annoying sbb sumhow aku pun camtu... people around me pon cam2... aku tak suke timun dipotong tebal2... aku rase hanyir... aku tak suke mkn telur kuning... except telur dadar... kalau order telur mate kerbau... mesti nk asing... kalau tak asing aku rs loye... my fiancee tak suke bende yg senget2... die tak suke tgk... abeh tuh cemane... trust me.. sometimes we find it very annoying tp sbnrny mende2 bala perfectionist nih kte yg reka2 or we call it as a myth... mane ade bende yg perfect kat dunia nih... only Allah is perfect... tp no matter how frequent we remind ourselves about WE'RE NOT THAT PERFECT.... makin teruk kite jadi kan?

well... its up to u to interpret my entry kan? it is just a piece of writing... sape nk mrh.. its up to him/her... sbb it is a reminder for me as well... *sigh*

i'm not ok... ( I promise)

gullible n vulnerable...yupp.. am not... i'm not dat foolish... not dat stupid... ive learn a lot from my life... it has made me stronger in every way... i do cry sometimes... who doesnt? but diz time... i wont shed any tears... it's a lesson for me and for us... dun take everything for granted... at this moment of speaking... i'm texting with my bulat... and at the same time writing diz entry n i can feel dat my BP is pumping... FUCK!!! marahnyer haku!!!!!!

p/s: (i need my drugs shayang... puwishhh??)

i've let it out finally...

sorry students...
but i have to let it out juz now..
been keeping it for sometimes oredi...
it is for your own good not mine..
u have let out the angry monster in me...

AIN'T LIFE'S A BITCH PEOPLE?

B.E.R.A.N.G.I.N!!

like seriously? 12 absentees today?
what more excuses u wana make?
tertido? DON'T GIVE ME THAT BULLSHIT!!
org lain pon bgn sahur gak..
dh naik LEMAK kan?
iskk... marah btol haku arini!!!!

entry filler...

i'm suck at it BIG TIME.. ego kan? ntah.. i duno.. i kept on breaking other's heart... my parents, my brothers, my friends, everybody who knows me... i no i'm not good at it at all... seriously.. it fuckin disturbed me somehow wen i think of it...

people bitching about u behind ur back... people said bad things about u... people dun believe u at all... people hate u... people do diz... people do dat.. how wud u feel? wut d'u do? swallow it evntho u no it's damn fuckin bitter..

life's a bitch...ya i no... tell me all about it... ive been facing my ups and downs in life... i wish i cud survive... becuz i no right now... at the moment of speaking... i cant... i juz cant... it is too painful to think... i hv nobody to turn to... fuck!!

tiring day...

phew... i havent updated moi blog for ages oredi... no mood 2 write la... the migraine keep on visiting me these couple of weeks... takkan nak mintak mc je... nnt doc ckp aku mls n suke ponteng plakk..

well.. he left kptm 4 gud oredi... sob sob sob... boo hoo... dun cwy la jetto.. bkn takleh jumpe... he's in Uni. M'sia Phg as a guru bahasa... well... gud luck 2u hunn... tade sape nk teman i g komasra... wuwu... sedey... LOL!!~~~

as a result of his gudbye... WE have to take his classes... me myself... hv 2 take 2 of his classes... and that has made my workload bertambah 2 24hrs... and also dat makes me have the most workload among all the english lecturers... LETIH doww!!! curently, i hv 2 teach 5 kptm classes and one UiTM class.. thank God yg bdk UiTM nih.. used 2b my stdnts last semester... tapi agak lemak la sorg2... quite a few number of stdnts ask me the same quest... particularly on tuesday... miss.. u luk pale la 2day... miss... whats with the sad face... and yada yada yada...pheww... tiring and tiring day... menci... on tuesday.. my clas will be str8 from 8-4... with only one hr gap during lunch... =(

well... nuff said lahh... tired to write oredi...

Nothing Lasts Forever...

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes you so hard to stay
Nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way....

kusut masai serabai... cam cibai!!

tanak dengar... tanak dengar... tanak dengar.... lalalalalalalala.........

I am...

closing the door...

*sigh*

eff...

dear problems and pressures,

COULD YOU FUCK THE HELL OFF??!! You are killing me slowly...

benci!

aku rase maken ari.. muke aku maken stuck-up.. so? bear with it laa kan? jgn komplen...*sigh*